Strength to Journey On

Today, I received a terrible news that one of my colleague has passed away suddenly last night, apparently due to heart-related cause. He was a young man, husband of one, and everything seemed to be going well for him. Though I am not close to him, we were members of one same committee. The news was shocking, yet somehow, part of me is somewhat numb. There have been too many sudden deaths around me this year...

Receiving this news in the midst of low morale in the office is not at all helpful. Am feeling very down… Lots of uncertainties in the air, and I cannot seem to snap out of this lousy feeling. As a result, I am unable to focus or concentrate on the things that I do. And then, such feeling of incompetence gets me further down. Sigh…

I felt the Lord reminding me again that life is SHORT, and so very unpredictable. We can plan all we want, but we never know what is God’s plan for us. We need to live life for the moment, to tell our loved ones how we love and cherish them, to spend time with them, to build on our relationships cos these are things that matter, really. This incident has also made it more imperative for me to talk about God and eternal life to colleagues around me.

Just as I am grappling with this news, my colleague and Uni friend confided in me that his marriage was annulled since the onset of the marriage, in 2005. I was totally shocked. How could it be? I attended their church wedding back in 2005 and had witnessed a loving couple say their vows. My friend said that the ex was not ready for marriage and she backed out no matter how much counseling they underwent. I can’t imagine the difficult time my friend went through. Oh man, this news just adds on to the heaviness in me… Lord, life is not so rosy afterall!

So I attended WIN with a heavy heart just now, and God met me there and then! So desperately needed to hear Him and find strength in Him to journey on. Guess He knew better, and He reached out to me. Am grateful for the strength to carry on.