Action time

When I was leaving my office last Friday evening, I noticed a group of staff standing together at a nearby grass patch, burning incense paper. Although I heard about this thing being planned some time back, seeing it with my own eyes just jolted me awake on the inside. I felt my heart ache as I sense His own ache.

For the past weeks since moving to my new Dept, I have been trying to ignore His gentle prompting to gather fellow Cs together regularly for prayer and support. I reasoned that I can't be the initiator and then get stuck as the facilitator / leader. I would have no energy to sustain this in the long run. Already have a cell to follow up with, and I can't imagine having to psyche myself up to lead this group in workplace too! Then, I recall the stint leading my Uni course prayer group. It was stressful, having to come up with group purpose, activities, weekly exhortation, worship etc. It's like planning for another cell. Moreover, I do not know if the Cs are keen. Afterall, its a commitment of sorts. What if they say yes, but never come regularly? Then I'll be left alone! Don't know if I am able to handle this kind of potential emotional ride! Also, a regular gathering of this nature, say during lunch time, would also be disruptive to some existing lunch kakis. And I'm not sure if I want to be cast in the limelight for initiating this. So, I kept pushing this out of my mind...

I knew that the model answer is that its never about me. I am just a willing instrument to be used. And I can draw strength from God, and need not be disappointed if nobody turns up. And also that I will surely have words of encouragement if I keep close to God daily and hear from Him. And it won't be burdensome as it would be a time of meeting with God.

When I saw the sight on Friday, I was upset with myself for not having the courage to obey God in gathering His people together, and having a unity that comes from Him. Surely when we come together to seek His face, He will honor us and accomplish His purpose in and through us. We would also be able to support each other as we face the work challenges. I am a C who happens to be an engineer, not an engineer who happens to be a C.

After pondering this issue with the Lord, I knew that I just had to move by faith. I could not ignore the promptings of the HS. Only pray that He will prepare the other chaps as well, to want to come together as a prayer support group. Currently, I can only think of 2 other persons to invite, but I'm sure that there are more. May He be exalted in our midst more and more. Yes, its time to come out from under the bowl and shine...